Light at the end of the Tunnel.

Ada Adams once said, " There's a light at the end of every tunnel. Some tunnels just happen to be longer than others", and there I was unknowingly at the start of the longest tunnel of my life. 

I took a leap of faith to begin my own business earlier this year. If you know me, you know that I am the kind of person where when I put my mind to it, I won't stop until I succeed. I am driven by passion and give 110% in everything I do. 

So, you could imagine all the emotions I had. I was excited but nervous and ultimately knew that helping small businesses grow is what I want to do in life.

Just like a rollercoaster, life was ascending! I traveled more than ever while being my own boss, I had freedom and truly trusted God for provision. Suddenly, after summer vacation- all that had changed.

I felt as if my world was crumbling down. Bit by bit. One thing after another and at first I tried to be strong. That's what we are taught- be strong, it will pass! Though that may be true, it doesn't feel encouraging when I was dealing with some major life trials. I couldn't help but wonder- when will this pass? How much longer do I need to deal with this? Why am I going through this again? Why is this not working?

Mind you, my faith is strong. I believe in a God that is greater than I could ever be and trusted him. But, at that moment- I doubted God. I doubted life. I was just in a funk. I cried myself to sleep every night, rarely opened up to my close friends or family, and ultimately felt like a failure. I gave my heart and soul into this company betting on myself and I had to make a decision. I temporarily closed down. 

This tunnel of discouragement had a light. That light was myself; the woman I felt I had lost. I recognized that my mindset was the most important thing. I could sit at home and sob for days, not finding a solution (which I was) or I could get up, remind myself that I am not a failure, pick myself up and pray to God for wisdom. I chose me.

I leave to encourage you all- that you don't need to have it all together. I surely don't. But, waking up everyday and choosing YOU is a step closer to the light at the end of your tunnel.