Trust

Trust the process.

Easier said than done. I was brought back to a place where I had to trust the process. How might one do that? How could you trust the process when there was a huge gap of uncertainty. This is where I was. Sitting alone, crying my eyes out, trying to "trust the process."

It's one thing for God to test you in areas of your Life, but to test you in an area that is most precious to you is a whole different ball game. Thoughts that I could lose a part of my heart forever. 

I found myself- back against the wall- having to find some sort of mental strength, emotional strength and self control. The worst hours of my Life. And here I am thinking 48 hours was a challenge. 

What do you think of? What do you do? Where is your mind? How are you holding up? All these questions come naturally when others are trying to ask you or as I like to call it being "captain obvious" when it came to a taboo period of my Life. 

Honestly, I was numb. I was in shock. I didn't want to talk about what I was going through and the more that I thought about it, the more nauseous I got. Barely ate and couldn't sleep. I have these favorite denims and after 2 weeks, they were loose. That's when I noticed my mental state was taking a toll on my physical body. 

But, I had to trust the process. Wait the waiting game and hope for the best. I had to practice self-control and when I felt like giving up I was reminded that where I am weak, He is strong. 


We will all go through our own process in Life. Dealing with a break up, physical journey to your goal weight, being pregnant, or falling in love. Whatever you go through, I write this to encourage you all to trust God. Trust His timing and trust that everything happens for a specific reason. You may not know it at this moment but in due time it will reveal itself.